Cigarette Epiphany

 Hey, so I've been rolling my own cigarettes for a while now. "While" means a month. Two months max. Just to give you a general idea. I still suck pretty badly at it and they're so skinny and loose so it's hard to keep one lit sometimes. Other times it's all miraculous and tight (never full though) and I feel so accomplished as I'm puffing and the ring of orange is steadily edging towards me. Relighting cigarettes suuuucks. I feel so stupid. I'm like, "hold up...let me redo this..." It ruins the whole groove of the thing.

As I rolled up a cigarette tonight for a good nighttime smoke I realized something. I like everything natural. This wasn't breaking news to me or to anybody that knows me. It was a deeper understanding of the thing, I think.

I try and eat all organic food. If it's not organic than it's as close to natural as possible (unprocessed). It freaks me the heck out when I devour chemicals in any fashion. I started rolling cigarettes because it's cheaper than spending five to seven dollars on the packs of cigarettes with no chemicals in them. A bag of natural tobacco (not organic-should probably look into that. Pesticides! Ahhhh!!!!) and rolling papers was a whopping $3. SCORE! I continue smoking them for various reasons.

I know, I know, it seems all hypocritical that I'm smoking cigarettes and I'm a health freak. Well, whatever. I enjoy smoking and if you've seen my pathetic little rolled cigarettes you wouldn't be that worried. I don't consume enough tobacco in a day to wound a 5 year old child, I'm sure. There's also a paper mill right down the road billowing out stacks of smoke into our atmosphere. Meeeeeehhhh....I think I'll light one up on occasion.

Anyways, I digress... 

I'm doing a project for my last psychology class EVER (probably). It's on evolutionary psychology. This was the big thing I realized while nic-ing myself up on this wet and windy evening: I'm drawn to evolutionary psychology because it's natural. I could never tell why I liked it so much. It wasn't because I believed it wholeheartedly or because I'm like "yeah Darwin! Oh my gosh, you were right about everything!" I am just naturally drawn to a natural explanation to our everyday lives.

Pretty neat. Now I'm going to go lounge in the nude and make some daisy chains. Perhaps romp around in the mud and do a rain dance later on too.

Namaste! OM